Wandering Thoughts 4

Exam is finally over today ~~~ haha feeling quite ok ar, after eating with Weili Gang (Joyce, Zhi Qiang, Wanting, Yi Min, Esther) at the Jap Restaurant near the Jurong West Stadium.

Haha after reading thru some blogs, I realized that some of my course mates are feeling quite demoralized after the exams, being worried of the lack of preparations and results to come. Some of them made references to O Levels and even put themselves in the shoes of a Rat in a Rat Race.

Well I must say Dun Worry, cos u will always have me as the base level. Haha cos I gotta admit that I really lack the determination to excel in academic. The results falling curve has started since O Levels for me, after getting 14 points, I went on to JC and got quite a Fency Grade (Triple C), and Year 1 Sem 1 was quite a disaster. However, I think I have seen thru it for a long time, just do my best that I can. JC level I was very confident that I can get into Uni no matter how lousy my grades are, and in Uni I am still rather confident that I can get get thru the 4 years without being kicked out. So ... I still got into Uni in the end ar, some more the course that I like ... good luck.

So with these thinkings, I dun think I have anything else to worry about. It means that I can use all my other energies for activities, and CCA groups. Isnt it more fun to interact with ppl and doing things u like ? I still have lots of things that I haven achieve. One of them is going another level in ODAC, increasing my photography experience by joining the photography club, performing at the HSS nite, and the other recent resolution is getting a Diving License next sem. Haha thinking bt it makes me excited !!!

However, behind all my smiley faces in reality, haha there are always some emotional factors that I faced. Well since I dun really like to show it in reality, I guess blogging is a good way. Lets see ... My grades sux, I am struggling to get a job, I cant seem to excel in anything, I lack leadership skills and effective communication skills, worst still I dun dare to venture into new terrains such as having a relationship. Haha quite lousy sia.

Hmm ... then I must mention a news about ****** I heard over the dinner today which made me rather sian also ... I guess with my lousy luck and inaction there is little chance le ~~~ haha

I guess the only solution is to think less, maybe that will make life simpler and happier. Say ...run more with Timothy, Swim more, donate more blood ?